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  • Hi! Welcome to ELLENZILLA photography, and thanks for stopping by! My blog is a little bit business, and a little bit personal. My goal is to share with you the girl behind the lens, and give a better insight to my personal photography style.

    I live in Houston, TX, though originally haled from Barnet, England. I love documenting anything I find beautiful in life. I'm obsessed with traveling and capturing my experiences, but capturing fleeting moments of happiness and love from others and sharing these memories with them is a gift I truly love to give. I specialize in portraiture and event photography, but I'm interested in all sorts of things, so please contact me for any reason! I'd love to know more about you, so be sure to say hi! I always love a new friend.

my lobster

title: phoebe/friends reference <3

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My handsome husband with his first lobster

Lately insomnia has become my late night companion, and I lay flooded with thoughts. Thoughts of my future baby, everything I need to still do, how great my step kids are, what I should try cooking for them next, decorating this house to be our home; my mind goes all over the place. But every night I look over at my sleeping husband and think how lucky I am to be so in love. He says I will love this baby more than him. Last night I found it hard to believe I could love something more than he. Without him, there would be no baby; without him I would be no mother. He has become part of my foundation. He makes me laugh from deep in my gut. How could I love someone more than who I want my baby to be just like? I know new mothers say they never knew love until they hold their baby for the first time, but I swear I felt that way when I met him. In my mind, I think I will love Jason even more than I do now, and I will love this baby just as much.

 

Touched

My heart it touched. My heart is swollen with love and emotion. My niece, Sarah, just asked me to be her unborn child’s Godmother and there are no words that can truly express the honor I feel to be even considered. My niece for the last ten years or so been more like a friend to me. More like a sister. In our adult years (she’s very close to my age) we have found a closeness that is indescribable. I have no words for how much love I have for her. I know that love will spill over to her child.

As I am now reaching 31 years old, I realize that having children of my own may not ever happen for me. It’s not the path I envisioned for myself  years ago, but it’s one that I have accepted. I understand there is no control that I hold over my life, my journey, my story. I know in my heart that I would be a very loving mother. To know that someone else sees this inside of me, while part of my struggle in my life is feeling that a past significant other did not see this in me, is the greatest compliment. To Sarah, I thank you for giving me a gift of love and honor. To unborn baby – I will love you forever.

PAST PRESENT FUTURE

It’s new years day. I happen to have the evening all to myself, which only leads me to sit here and reflect on the past year, think of my life at this very moment, and all the possibilities of my future. Of course, one thing I have learned in my years is that I have absolutely no control of this life of mine. Life insists spontaneity, happenstance, serendipity. I’m constantly led to lessons I need to learn, and my life changed by each little experience. I am open to my life more than ever before, this I know for sure. I’ve learned to put myself and my happiness first, to stop being so afraid of change, to also accept that I have no control. The most important thing I learned in 2014 was to stop being so scared of living my own life.

 

2014 for me was a year that brought about change. My life went from one I knew quite well in 2013, one I had virtually lived for years, day in and day out – to a brand new life I was completely unfamiliar with. New people, new job, new home, new life; new me. I found my strength in 2014. I became the most confident and comfortable with myself and accepted that not everyone is going to embrace my individuality or understand me from my core. In 2014, I left a lot behind. Also including the direction of my photography. For the first time in my entire life, I didn’t have any direction. 2014 I lived for my own happiness. To live with total acceptance is something that I can’t explain. My only goal in 2014 was to be happy. I gained as well as lost a lot in 2014, but I look back with no regrets and only see endless possibility for my future.

RESOLUTIONS:
BE MORE PRESENT
TAKE MORE PHOTOS
LOVE MYSELF THE MOST THAT I CAN
LOVE OTHERS THE MOST THAT I CAN
WRITE MORE
DRAW MORE
MAKE MY HEALTH A PRIORITY AGAIN
CONTINUE TO BE HAPPY
LET LIFE LEAD ME