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    I live in Houston, TX, though originally haled from Barnet, England. I love documenting anything I find beautiful in life. I'm obsessed with traveling and capturing my experiences, but capturing fleeting moments of happiness and love from others and sharing these memories with them is a gift I truly love to give. I specialize in portraiture and event photography, but I'm interested in all sorts of things, so please contact me for any reason! I'd love to know more about you, so be sure to say hi! I always love a new friend.

A Tribute to Winnie

Winnie was laid to rest this past Thursday afternoon. Rationally, I understand that this was a merciful decision for her, as her pain-free days were increasingly outnumbered by her pain-full days. Regardless, I am left weeping in her absence because my heart cannot make sense of why I would choose to put myself through such pain. The choice was mine, and it was either pain for me, or pain for her. She did not deserve to suffer, period, and to force her to suffer any longer so that I could continue to love her physical body was too selfish of a choice for me to live with.

Winnie and I had a connection that was undeniable from the first day I met her. It was so obvious that the woman I bought her from was actually not looking to sell her at all; only lease her – but could see there was something there between us. I had lost my first horse to tragic circumstances not long before, and really wasn’t interested in buying another. But, I fell in love with her right away, against all odds. She was destined to be in my life, and though our journey together was filled with struggles due to her illness from the very beginning, I have no doubt that I was the one meant to help her through it. Together, we fought valiantly for over a decade with many stretches of happy, healthy life in between; with hope and love our lifelines. I had every hope and intention that we would find a permanent solution for her. In the end, I was unsuccessful in my attempt to help restore her health.

Throughout our journey together, she reminded me of myself a lot. Resilient, stubborn, with an insane sweet tooth, bossy sometimes, but also sometimes a pushover. She was one of the kindest souls, who would never intentionally hurt another. She easily made friends with all humans and all other horses. Food was her favorite thing to think about. Mother like daughter.

I thank you all for your kind words, your support, your understanding, your warmth, your hope, your prayers and your love. I spent as much time as I possibly could with her before I had to say goodbye, and I know for a fact that she was happy, her stomach full of her favorite snacks, and felt loved. I am grateful for having the help of my family, different farriers & vets, and the owner, staff, and members of the stable she stayed at to help us on our journey along the way. Most importantly, I am grateful for the memories that she allowed me to have by being in my life. I am grateful that she fought with me, and gave us both more time together.

Goodbye, Winnie.
I will miss you. My heart is yours.

Jacob - I know she was your best friend, even before I knew you. I remember coming to see you ride. I have wonderful memories of going and feeding her little carrots and scrounging up bits of hay for her to snack on. She loved you dearly,as you loved her. you fought so hard to keep her well. I remember the frustration of trying to soak her foot in a bucket, much to her dismay. Tenderly caring for her foot, applying medicine, wrapping up her wounds, and giving her medicine to dull the pain. I know with this loss, part of your heart left with her. You gave her your all and despite your best efforts,you had the strength and resolve to selflessly do what was best for her. there is no doubt she was just like her mother.I’m incredibly sorry for your loss I know how incrediblly important she is to you.

things are getting serious

another happy anniversary dedication post to, as my girl ariel says, “a part  of my world”: my long red locks. i honestly can’t believe that it’s already time for me to write this post. it’s been two entire years since my hair went from it’s natural color to this super bright fire engine red (you may remember last year’s post dedicated to our first anniversary). this is officially 730 daysof red hair. two years ago i couldn’t have imagined that i would keep this hair color longer than a few months, and now i can’t imagine my life without it. it’s kind of crazy for me to acknowledge, because i consider myself to be a fairly low maintenance person – and this hair is definitely the opposite of that. that said, i have found it’s well worth the extra work, as i love the person my hair has helped me become. i will tell you, it has been a strange journey to be the girl under this red mop, because i can be a pretty shy person with people i don’t know well. this hair has forced me to be less so, as one person put it simply in the street as they approached me with conversation “well, you can’t be shy with that hair”, which i quickly learned was true. for some reason, one that i’m not mad about, people feel very comfortable talking to a stranger with red hair.  it’s been two years of self growth, and self love. i’ve learned to always live at my best (or at least to try), and i actually really enjoy chatting with strangers and meeting new people so easily all due to a vibrant choice of hair color.  it is strange that something so seemingly unimportant has had such an influence on my life. i have to say, i’m quite addicted to these long red locks, and i wouldn’t be upset if i saw another anniversary in the future. 


ruby was quite concerned about why i was sitting in the grass, so she had to come check on me

Mom - My beautiful daughter! Sure do take after your good looking parents.:) Love you Ellen and love the blog!

ellenzilla - yep i got the best of both worlds 😀 to quote my friend’s mom “s&*^ like that is hereditary” haha <3 love my momma!!

John robert mummery - Congrats on your anniversary from a fellow (natural) redhead. Photos are beautiful.

ellenzilla - thanks john!! appreciate your comment, and hope you are good! haven’t talked to ya in awhile 🙂

val - You have flair…lots of it! I’m glad you and your red hair met…you’re an awesome dream team. Happy Ann!!

Stephanie - These photos are gorgeous and so are you!! I’ve been looking for glasses similar to those everywhere. Love them!

i hosted thanksgiving for the first time

and it was intense.

probably a month or two ago it was decided that i would host thanksgiving dinner this year. my body immediately started freaking out at the idea. it’s just such a huge event, right? everyone in the family cooks so well, and i am mediocre at best. and on top of that, i had no fall decorations. i immediately went into pyscho-crazy-hosting-lady mode and got right to work. i raided target’s most adorable clearance section, and started crafting like a mad woman. i tried to use recycled shipping products for a lot of my crafts, and then used paper and stuff that i already had. i assume the food turned out alright, but i can tell you one thing for certain – my house looked amazing!!

i don’t think the day could have turned out much better than it did. my best friend offered her assistance to help since she knew i was stressed about making the day perfect, my brother in law, mike, brought beatles on vinyl, and the rest of the family brought tasty food and their wonderful company. doesn’t get much better than that. all in all, it was a very successful thanksgiving dinner and i went to sleep that night with a very happy belly, and an even happier heart 🙂

this year i did not bust out my heavy duty camera, but i did manage to capture the important elements (at least to me) thanks to the trusty camera phone. which reminds me that a thank you to the camera phone is in order for the simple fact of it’s existance. if you care to see what mine and other eyes enjoyed that day, check em out below!